blood

what i see is not the tangible. it is the feeling of seeing.

what i feel is not the seeable. it is the pulsing of my heart. the living cells in my blood. the thickness. of my texture. the oxygen that runs through my veins.

what i live is not a life. it is the sense of aliveness that lives inside me – my soul. it is the meaning that is written in the redness of my blood.

my blood carries the history of my ancestors – the death and the life. my blood is the root of my existence and the wisdom of my soul.

my blood is red. thick. dark. it is the life force that runs through my existence.

the awareness of the pulsing force of my blood teaches me that i am here to observe. to learn. to feel things. to feel into and then try to understand. to know when to pause. when to go. when to stop completely. knowing those subtle yet strong signs piercing through my heart, pulsing from my centre and soul straight to yours. The connection.

Empathy. It is all about that. The dying. The acceptance of death. inside. every day. so that the reborn manifests.

the creation of that very space of freedom. that power that makes us immortal. as souls.

the acceptance of nothingness and letting everything flourish into space. inside and outside of us.

knowing that we know nothing. and being able to learn the new every day. learning to be wrong every day. the abondment of the self. the dying inside every day. to be reborn again. in order to live again. a life where nothing remains but love. and nothing exists but silence. in your breath. the place where love manifests and lives eternally. the space where the feeling of love for you is. that love that we share. my prayer before i go to sleep. that love that lives no matter what. whatever that “no matter what” means.

I am the work I love

 

i am the work i love. the constant digging. the contnuous shifting. the ongoing awakening.

i wake up every morning and i witness the change. of flames. in shape, colour and smell. different fromt he night before.

the dreams. they transformed my soul again.

during the day. those perceptions of multiple realities. my ees don’t see. my soul does.

the people. my eyes see bodies. my heart feels stories. my soul senses eternal souls. that pain of fragmentation. mirrors. shadows.

i see. i feel. i know. so, i love.

then they melt. they feel life. they entre a sacred space. they see the light. of their souls.

now the wonder. who am i? i am a story told by the ocean. i am a vibration emanated by by its waves. i am life rooted in the soil. and expanded throughout the skies.

i am everything that you are and nothing that you are not. i am you. love. if i stop my work my soul disappears and only my body remains.

i want to live so i continue my work. because that’s nurturing my soul. without this brutal and intense work there is no soul. no me. that’s why i am the work i love.

freedom of the soul

I have heart many times speaking about the definition of a real man or a real woman. A real woman is not she who submits her will to someone else’s opinion. A real woman is she who carries her truth kindly. She is a mother who cares, a woman who carries another life inside her. She is the roots and she has the strength of a tree. A real man is he who honours, admires, respects and loves all women, hence all human creation. His behaviour is a kind one. And he speaks words of wisdom, compassion, peace and love. A real man is the perfect balance of yin and yang…a totally integrated soul who cares and carries his truth kindly too. There is no seperation between a man and a woman. They are connected and they love each other no matter what the relationship is…a sister, a friend, a girlfriend, an auntie…etc. they are in complete union…when they are real, when they let themselves be spirit. Only then…they are dancing.

It is easy to just give a definition like that. What is not easy is, to understand what makes a man real and a woman real. Both a real woman and a real man were led by extraordinary examples during their childhood, namely parents who had either already gotten rid of their heavy baggage which was transmitted to them by their own parents, or they are those extraordinary souls who were born with a high level of awareness, and therefore capable of decoding and breaking away from any sort of conditioning – they were born critical thinkers. They know their values and why they are here, and they are courageous souls: they dream big and live like there is no tomorrow, simply because they know! They trust their heart and instinct or inner voice and they are able to preserve and aliment their positive, creative and inspirational vibrations within their energy field. They are the earthkeepers as they Shamans call them – namely those who came from the divine to spread the message of love. They intend to protect their souls because they know that it is there were the trees grow, the flowers blossom, the rivers flow, the sea nourishes the life it hosts and the earth dances with the sun and the moon. They know that their soul is the universe – and ought to be protected, nourished and loved.

It is very difficult for a person to carry realness when affected by fear rooted in their LEF (luminous energy field) which, as claimed before, originated by parents who struggled themselves with their external environment, and who therefore automatically transmitted those codes to their children. That is the reason why they cannot be authentic and real, because they lack the courage to be who they really are. Most people are attached to an idea of who they are which is only the reflection of what others believe about them. They do not know that they are not those beliefs. They are trapped in that viscious circle and live a life full of roles through which they satisfy others – not the essence of their soul which is burried so deeply that their consciousness is unable to raise and see the beauty inside.

I decided to write a few lines about this topic to rise awareness and sensibility about these realities. You may be a person who is struggling inside, or maybe you are going through a tough time with your kids. You are in that situation where you are confused and find it difficult to make a decision. You are unable to see clearly, and due to your vulnerability, you easily let a part of yourself die by submitting your will to someone else’s opinion. A person who always acts out fear and never does what she really feels – sometimes because your vision is obscured and you are unable to see what you really want. Hence, you believe that what you are doing is coherent to your values. Sometimes because you feel more comfortable doing what others do.

Life is a path where each one of us is a warrior, and you can decide today wether you want to be a peaceful warrior or a warrior of peace! There is a huge difference between those two warriors. The former lives life courageously and faces his deep wounds with compassion, kindness and love. The latter lives with fear and intends to fight all the obstacles she encounters duirng this path with anger, frustration and cowardness. This does not mean that the peaceful warrior never gets angry or frustrated. It only means that the former is aware of his anger and intends to understand it in order to accept it and transform it into strength. The latter justifies his anger and is too scared to face it. She is too scared to understand its roots. The plain truth is that peace is there if you choose to see it. It is not there if you decide to avoid it. You are responsibile for your life because you have got the power of choice. I know that for some souls life may result as a harder torment as compared to other souls. What I also know is that we can do it. Each one of us can start today and take her first step towards freedom. Freedom of the soul.

…cus “we are spiritual beings having a human experience” – Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

aesthetic experience

I have noticed recently that when I write I quote a lot of words. Why? Simply because behind every word there are multiple meanings.
People ask me what I do for living? I say: I “teach” English.
I quote the word teach because it does not actually mean teaching, as people would frame it. It is not about me teaching “my students” English. English is just the mean I use to fulfil a much greater job, namely CONNECTING. In my class I create energy, synergy, synchronisities, vibrations.
My students are their own teacher. I am just the facilitator. I show them how to learn. I do not transfer knowledge.

In my class there is no”mistake” or “correct answer”. There are so many correct answers to one question.
Every student sees the question with different eyes and consequently has a different answer.
I accept any answer and any “spelling mistake”.
I focus on communication and expressing from the heart without limitation.

Today I gave my class a “grammar test”. One of my students had not finished while everyone had finished and it was time to give them a break as well. So, I collected all the “tests” except the one of the student who was still writing, and left the class. I told her to finish her test and give it to me after the break.
I cannot forget my students’ face. They could not understand why I would leave my student alone in the classroom surrounded by books from where she could have “copied”.
She can “copy” if she wants to, but she won’t do that because it is not “a test” whose score will classify her level of English. It is a simple exercise through which she can see what she has understood so far and what she still needs to practise. I never give them tests. I only give exercises. Therefore, there is no anxiety. All there is is a high level of confidence and spontaneity.
This is just a small example of what happens in my class.

In my class, there is no way to study. People are on the floor or in the corridor. Some people listen to music while studying, others stand up and walk while doing their exercises. I love this learning environment, where everyone is free, where everyone collaborates with each other.
In the end, they all get the answers.
I never give them the answer. Aren’t they awesome?
Active learning is what learning is all about.
I find it difficult to give my students scores. How can I give them scores?
For me they are all top, beautiful human beings who are sharing the learning experience.

For education to be educative there needs to be a focus on creativity and freedom.
Any concept needs to disappear or be reinvented by the students who collaborate and debate.
This means that what is “taught” is not actually taught but just discussed. And there is no conclusion.
All there is, is mere interaction between the students. It is a flow of energy.
It is an exchange of synergies.
I love it when they get into the topic and bring their reality and world view into the discussion.
It makes it so rich. This interaction transmogrifies into an exchange. It is this exchange that I call education.
It does not come from the books. It comes from the people. It comes from the heart.
Education is sharing. Not imposing. Not studying. Not understanding. Not memorising.
If you memorise stuff then you will adopt the box as it is without questioning it, without seeing it, without feeling it. You will not even understand that concept. What happens, though, is that that concept shapes your existence and it limits your creativity. Once you memorize something you get stuck with that and it is difficult for you to see other ways. That concept will be anchored in your mind. That’s when you say “I believe,…”.
For the mind to be free, multiple and open to the plurality of life one needs to reject the concept of “I believe…” since there is no belief. All there is is a constant change with the flow of energy.
Be like water.
I will never stop referring to Bruce Lee, who says “Where there is a way therein lies limitation.”
That’s why there cannot be any education in this world since education is just another box which classifies and teaches different concepts. It fragments the oneness of the universe.
Everything is so connected and is bliss. Education is the tool used by the system which separates this mystical bliss created by mother nature – ONENESS – in order to make things complicated and construct multiple realities in people’s mind, eradicating the essence of the truth – the only truth – oneness.

I “educate” or better “diseducate” when “teaching”….I am quoting a lot these days simply because, as I mentioned previously, there is sooo much behind every word I say that it cannot simply remain unquoted….or the interlocutor will immediately put that word in the box and “organize” it by giving it a meaning which will fit in with society. That’s when it gets out of context.
It seems to be very difficult for people to see the context.
I experience the “out of contextness” every moment I interact with a person in the outer world.
I am always talking about the truth which, however, gets “organized” and labelled under a certain category or box, for example the “relationship” box, the “teaching” box, the “partnership” box, the “love” box.
I am surrounded by boxes. Every box has specific rules.
Where do these rules come from? Who made them up and why do you take them as the norm?
Can’t you see the inapplicability of those rules for every box?
Life is so pluralistic and various that you cannot put a label on a feeling. You cannot label a feeling.
The feeling is yours. It is inside of you and only you know it.

The truth lies in the blueness of the ocean.

Poetic Lyric