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what i see is not the tangible. it is the feeling of seeing.

what i feel is not the seeable. it is the pulsing of my heart. the living cells in my blood. the thickness. of my texture. the oxygen that runs through my veins.

what i live is not a life. it is the sense of aliveness that lives inside me – my soul. it is the meaning that is written in the redness of my blood.

my blood carries the history of my ancestors – the death and the life. my blood is the root of my existence and the wisdom of my soul.

my blood is red. thick. dark. it is the life force that runs through my existence.

the awareness of the pulsing force of my blood teaches me that i am here to observe. to learn. to feel things. to feel into and then try to understand. to know when to pause. when to go. when to stop completely. knowing those subtle yet strong signs piercing through my heart, pulsing from my centre and soul straight to yours. The connection.

Empathy. It is all about that. The dying. The acceptance of death. inside. every day. so that the reborn manifests.

the creation of that very space of freedom. that power that makes us immortal. as souls.

the acceptance of nothingness and letting everything flourish into space. inside and outside of us.

knowing that we know nothing. and being able to learn the new every day. learning to be wrong every day. the abondment of the self. the dying inside every day. to be reborn again. in order to live again. a life where nothing remains but love. and nothing exists but silence. in your breath. the place where love manifests and lives eternally. the space where the feeling of love for you is. that love that we share. my prayer before i go to sleep. that love that lives no matter what. whatever that “no matter what” means.

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I am the work I love

 

i am the work i love. the constant digging. the contnuous shifting. the ongoing awakening.

i wake up every morning and i witness the change. of flames. in shape, colour and smell. different fromt he night before.

the dreams. they transformed my soul again.

during the day. those perceptions of multiple realities. my ees don’t see. my soul does.

the people. my eyes see bodies. my heart feels stories. my soul senses eternal souls. that pain of fragmentation. mirrors. shadows.

i see. i feel. i know. so, i love.

then they melt. they feel life. they entre a sacred space. they see the light. of their souls.

now the wonder. who am i? i am a story told by the ocean. i am a vibration emanated by by its waves. i am life rooted in the soil. and expanded throughout the skies.

i am everything that you are and nothing that you are not. i am you. love. if i stop my work my soul disappears and only my body remains.

i want to live so i continue my work. because that’s nurturing my soul. without this brutal and intense work there is no soul. no me. that’s why i am the work i love.

Jungle

I feel that I am at a point in my life where the feeling of connecting to nature and reality is so strong, that everything that fills up my days here in the West, just seems so awkward and fake to me. This man-built society is false. It is a construction of the mind. And we are serving it emotionally and physically. The planet is suffering because man dismantled reality. Nature is suffering because it cannot express herself freely anymore as it is being controlled by a powerful and rational system.

My journey has been intense. Deep. Sacred. I loved everything about my spiritual path…and I am still loving everything.

I decided to write a post about my strong desire to go to the jungle and live with medicine people! Yes, MEDICINE PEOPLE!!! They live in the jungle, where there is nothing but nature, where NOTHING ELSE BUT NATURE RULES LIFE! Here, we have got doctors who are insane and disturbed beings who are far away from being human, and far way from BEING! They are suffering. My question is: How can people who are in a state of pain heal?

But, that is not even the point of this post whose title is Jungle.

The point is that those jungle people who we call medicine people are simple human beings who are living humanly their state of being. The are connected – like newborns. They live in synch with the universe!!! 

Hence, the point is that I feel like there is no more point to live here anymore. It all seems so distant and contorted to me. It does not feel home to me. I feel like I am a stranger here. The way I am raising my kids all leads back to the roots of the Jungle. And I am really finding it so hard to just breathe here.

If I was to take my family and walk away JUST LIKE THAT, without anything, leaving everything tangible and material behind…I mean, if I am ready to do this…then the next question would be: Am I also ready to step into the wild and live according to nature??? Yes, I am!

I am ready for the jungle! I am ready for LIFE AS IT IS. I am ready to live as if I was only born the moment I step into the wild…I want to learn everything again.

This is how I feel today!

No need to homeschool. No need for so much efford to keep the continuum concept alive. No need to unlearn. Why so much hassle, when there is an easy way to just BE IT?

In the jungle!

I would love to connect to people, like Sarah Begum, to find out more about their experiences in the jungle. Internet is such a powerful tool to use to find information about other worlds.

So, YOU, yes YOu out there..please get in touch!

I am ready!